badminton at UPenn

so…the trip to UPenn in Philadelphia was pretty fun. we didn’t do so great against their teams–i think we actually only won one of all the games we played–but generally it was pretty fun.

after playing the main matches we launched into some exhibition matches, which didn’t really count in terms of the IBA. during those, half of us left earlier, and then afterwards the remainder of us headed off to get something to eat.

while we were looking for a place, it suddenly started hailing and raining, and we ran out of Chris’ car to grab clothes from the back. i went to the trunk but one of our other team members, who didn’t see me in the hail, tried to close the trunk, which hit my head. luckily all i have now is a bump on the end.

so eventually after some fruitless searching we just ate some “chinese” food, then headed back. on the way back i closed my eyes…and passed out in like a minute, and didn’t wake up til we’d returned to Rutgers.

man.

i’m so pumped to improve in badminton right now b/c i’m so annoyed at how we did at upenn. so many stupid mistakes, so many things we need to improve, to fix, to learn…so much room for improvement.

well, we’ll see what we can do.
2am.

delayed sleep

typical of me. it’s 3:21 and i was supposed to be asleep an hour and a half ago…but then my laptop’s sound stopped working. and ok, i fixed that a while ago and since then i’ve been doing a few other things…argh.

i think it’s the song that’s playing on itunes right now, but it makes me feel a bit lonely, which isn’t really a feeling i much like.

i’m going to sleep when the song’s done.
3:22am

pretournament

it’s 1:30am, and i plan to turn in quite shortly, the reason being that the team from out badminton club is heading to UPenn early tomorrow morning.

we’ve set the meeting time to be 9am, and so…i should be off to sleep soon if i want to be at my relative best…which of course i do.

this weekend hasn’t really felt like a weekend, for whatever reason. today, i got up late-ish, at around 4-something i think and then headed right to the gym, first to meet one of our coaches who lent us his camcorder and then to play a bit of badminton as a kind of last-minute practice, then i played some badminton at the gym til they closed at 6pm. then went to grab dinner, then met up with chris, who just got his car on campus for the weekend, and we went to shoprite to buy some drinks and snacks for the team.

came back, chilled at my apartment a bit, and he left around 12:30am.

time to sleep soon.

hopefully we win a few matches tomorrow, haha. it’ll be our team vs. UPenn’s team and also vs. the team from Haverford…but we haven’t really heard too much about their teams. so we’ll see what happens.
1:34am.

annoying tuesday

housing screwup in the form of a roommate’s friend forgetting that today was apartment selection, and now there aren’t any more rooms in the easton ave apartments. that’s pretty wack.

in other news. it looks like things worked out with the friend, which sounds great to me.

now if only things might start working out on my end.
but i think that’s going to involve more than just wishful thinking.

housing messup

it’s been something of an altogether annoying Tuesday.

i just found out that apparently one of the people i’m supposed to be living with next year forgot that today was the apartment selection and now they’re out of rooms, meaning we have to settle for a place that basically isn’t as good or in as convenient a location (which is the more important thing). sooo…that’s pretty stupid.

seems like this “fml” thing is a lot like the ru screw that we’ve got here at rutgers, except that it applies to everything.

i’m also becoming more and more certain that my less-than-normal sleeping schedule is the cause of more problems than i realize. i guess that’s now the first of many things to fix. except that yesterday that attempt completely failed.

i’d like to rewind, please.

spring break’s end

kinda strange that spring break is already over and i’m back at Rutgers again. Break passed by mad quickly, but I guess that means I had fun, which…I did, for the most part.

when i think about it a little bit, some things just -feel- a bit out of wack…things aren’t quite right, i guess. i think i’m going to withdraw from this one class, and that means i have to, absolutely need to do well in the other ones. i’m not too worried about two of the remaining four, but two others…yeesh. i need to…haha. i need to do a lot.

the best friend just started -his- spring break, he came back on saturday night and we had a chance to grab a quick lunch on sunday, chat a bit, which is always nice. later that night i met up with some old friends to celebrate j’s 19th birthday, eating dinner at the Red Lobster on rt. 17, then heading over to her house and chilling a bit. haha, did some things there, we helped her out with some interesting thing, and then due to some combination of things most of us didn’t head off till somewhat late-ish, definitely around 11:30pm if not later. i drove another friend back to her house, chatted at her place a bit, and then drove back home at around 3am-ish. so i guess the chat might’ve been more than a bit, but i think it was time well spent. i do hope that it helped.

on the whole, break was really nice. i didn’t do too much more than hanging out with friends, eating at places, spending money, and driving around, but i think the whole hanging out with friends whom i appreciate definitely made the whole week pretty worthwhile, despite the countless hours spent on public transportation to, fro, and in NYC.

the chat with the friend got me to (re)thinking about some things, and i guess made me look at myself (yet again) to try to, i dunno, see if there’s anything i can do to fix myself by myself.

i guess like i might’ve mentioned in the last “quickpress” thing, that there were a few parts of the conversation that made more of an impression, or stuck more deeply to me…i still wonder. hard to say what “normal” in a relationship is, i guess.

mm oh well. lots of things to hope about, i guess. i remember at one point while driving late night yesterday (maybe already early Sunday morning at this point), that I looked up at the night sky and saw the stars. it’s so nice, and i’m so glad that with glasses, or contacts or whatever, that i can see them every so often.

break was nice.

3:49am.

late thoughts

4:31am.

a bit earlier, a friend i was chatting with mentioned how the concept of cutting someone off was just quite so…how it was like cutting off contact with your best friend. i thought back a bit and i guess…i can understand that.

i dunno. i guess some things in the conversation made me think somewhat about my own past experience.

…yeah. i guess relationships aren’t really ever easy, but then i don’t think they’re really supposed to be. i suppose that they’re in the same category of things that one needs to work for, but that are more than worth the effort.

mmm well. let life go on, i guess. i want so much to able to just give myself some ultimatums but i don’t know if i can do hold myself to them.

4:41am.

unhappiness

there are times when i’m disinterested in things, and i think that has to do in large part with being unhappy. i’m not exactly sure why yet, though i keep trying to figure it out, but i think that i’m very unhappy with something or things.

until i can find out why or fix it, i think i’ll have a lot of trouble just…doing things.

trouble with fun

i think maybe i have trouble with fun, in that i don’t know when is enough. but then that would mean that i don’t really have a good understanding of things in moderation…kinda leading back to lack of self-discipline.
huh. and i thought i might’ve figured something out, but instead it seems like it was more a symptom than the source.

basically the “sleep earlier” plan failed miserably over these last two/three nights. right now it’s 8:03am and unlike this past Wednesday, it’s not because I actually woke up before 8. yeah. chilling with gabe and chris is mad fun but so bad for me. basically, i need to have all my work done before i head there to chill.

oh man. i hope i can do some useful things over spring break and also, i dunno, “stay in shape” or get in better shape. Tri-tournament with UPenn is coming up very quickly and we only have one real practice left due to break and Rutgers’ scheduling.

ok i need to finish my Chinese essay. 8:05am.

strangely up

it’s about 6:50am, and i guess the strange thing is that i actually just got up, as opposed to i’m -still- up. i don’t remember ever waking up in the middle of sleeping, so i’m not sure what’s going on, but since i can’t get back to sleep, i’m going to do a few things and try to sleep again.

strange.