I’m still getting a bit of that feeling where I have little to no idea of what’s going on haha.
We have dance practice every night this week in preparation for out first performance of the semester at CSO’s CARES, this Saturday. We’re not yet ready but hopefully by the end of Thursday night and especially by the end of Friday night’s practice, we will be. The set is still only semi-clean at best, even though it looks much better than even a week ago, but that’s to be expected as long as we keep practicing.
Ah, the things we need to do. Practices these next few nights, badminton this Friday, CARES this Saturday, studying nutrition in any gaps…the usual busy mix haha.
Normally after Tuesday dance practices I’d stay over on Busch to study or sleep, but tonight is different because I think I need my laptop to study for the Politics & Culture midterm I have later today, and I didn’t bring the laptop along.
That series of events leads me to my desk at the house, with lots of papers in front of me, a laptop nearby and a nearly empty bottle of Starbucks Mocha frappuccino. I suppose it’s no surprise that the freshly-made Frappuccinos taste much better haha.
Plan for the rest of the night: do as much reading and studying as I can before sleeping. Also, I can hopefully place an order for a pair of black and white Converses that we need as performance gear–the only thing holding me back is that I am not yet sure of my exact shoe size and want to compare with something else.
I don’t know how to phrase everything else I want to write about, so I suppose it will be a post for another time.
VSA/TASA’s Survival of the Fittest was this Sunday. Teams of 6 (at least 1 female) competed in a variety of events.
Layout was team games (single-elimination volleyball, double elimination tug-of-war, sack hop race) and individual mini-games (frisbee through hoop toss, water balloon into basket toss, ‘mario kart’ consisting of popping balloons attached to an opposing player’s feet, HORSE basketball game, and a fitness competition consisting of a plank and wall sit).
Our team, Verse Two, came in third haha, though I think we could’ve come in second (two points behind the RCC team). Upward counterfactual thinking, I guess.
I wonder how often I’ve unknowingly influenced my own thoughts when I’ve sat down to think or write things through–how often I may have convinced myself of something that might not have been the case, or how often I might have thought enough about something to tilt my views in a way that might not be right?
I think I’ve been learning a lot of useful information in social psychology, especially about some of the potential pitfalls in the way our minds work. I do have work to do if I should hope to integrate most of it haha.
And even despite being aware of this, now…am I wrong to think and attempt to reason sometimes, or what?
I, too, have been feeling an oppressing familiarity with the way I’ve been doing things and in the way things have lately been happening.
It seems that despite the good things in my life right now, I still haven’t found an answer to my restlessness.
I am hesitant for the crossroads I sense in the horizon and at the same time fear that I will, or can, walk a path without looking back.
I’m still not sure how I can go about living properly. Where do I draw the line? Good is good but I find it more and more difficult to silence the dissenting voices in my mind. How much compromise can or should be made?
I fear both the pain not yet endured and a path I could take to avoid it.
NYC: bus to Port Authority, late lunch at Brick NYC, dessert at L’arte del Gelato, assorted walking and getting chicken & rice for dinner, which we ate back at the house while watching more Avatar: the Last Airbender (season 3–it’s getting even better hahaha).
Fun for most of the time, though I shall undoubtedly be paying for it soon! Essay due Monday and midterm on Tuesday, and the remainder of the week left to rest up/catch up before Politics & Culture midterm in the following week.